When I poke my head out in shame from the window Avoiding the potholes and being a wreck But I end up crawling like a snail Leering into every alleyway And there are so many narrow halls around me I never know where I'll end up I never know where they go Standing awkwardly, with my hands stowed in In the center of a city Where everyone else learnt how to walk Is it too late to teach me now? I suppose that's it then I sit at my desk and die And I can't just keep a seat belt on As I lie in the backseat, the radio drowning out Your bits of advice, you speak to a faded poster But the flash of green comes ever closer to me I don't want to forget my self Turn into something that I was never meant To be, or more accurately, wanted to be As a child, as a child I come to you Why do I always end up tangled in your web of lies Why did you tell me I was gifted at all? Because what's a sound If it reverberates against nothing They watch other portraits And they watch in awe at them And I'm nothing now, but I just wanted to be something Broken pots Why do I never pick up the pieces myself? If I don't have this then what do I even have I have nothing at all I have nothing at all You can let the snow hide everything you want But when the snow melts, everyone sees the mud Go ahead, lie in what you've sown yourself But don't crawl back to me when you need help I can let the snow fall, let it pour over me But when the snow thaws, everybody will see All the sticks and stones, skeletons and bones All the dirt and grime, leaving scattered piles And the snow falls Way out there Beyond me Out of reach It gets so bright in small rooms I stare into the details of my wall The silence sounds so roaring I never looked it in the eye, I just ignored it So when I'm up until 4AM And I'm clutching myself, and I feel like I might as well be dead In the end I can only blame myself again If I could, I would've blamed it on a friend "Alright fine, fine, I'll give you one more chance-" I WON'T WASTE A SECOND CHANCE! And I watch it fall Way out there Out of reach Beyond me And I watch it fall Way out there Across the horizon To a place I'll never see And the snow falls Way out there And the snow falls Way out there "What do you think?" I think it's just... showing everyone our maturity, to be honest. "Don't you feel that maybe you're overthinking it?" I guess I am not as mature as I think. I am not who I think I am When did I miss how to walk I am not who I think I am The early bird gets the worm Cut, cut, cut out the lights I'll get out of the snow another time And the snow falls Way out there Beyond me Out Of reach I'm so obsessed over perfection Over not making a mistake Was that my biggest mistake? I'm sorry Did you hear me I'm sorry I'm sorry

Sometimes I get ahead of myself Sometimes I can act a bit closed off I know Maybe I get caught up in my thoughts I know I can barely hold the wheel I just wish you weren't bad for me Is it bad that I just want to dance with you Is it wrong that I want to ruin you Holding onto air to feel some weight on the ground I never could turn my insides out, out here Just keep telling me all the things you like Tell me bout all your favourite things in life Tell me about what you were doing all this time As long as you keep talking I don't really mind For every moment that I've wasted on wait For every time I've stayed in just to sleep Sowing what you reap, it all passes by me I still see it, I still see where I tore the seams What have I been doing all this time What have I been doing all my life Take my hands of the wheel I am no better a driver And I can't see very far past the veil For every moment I put on our heads, little winter snow I let it fall all over me slowly I know things can get complicated So let's unravel each wire, take it back to basics Can't you see I'm trying my best Speak to me, slowly and quiet Just keep telling me all the things you like Tell me bout all your favourite things in life Tell me about what you were doing all this time As long as you keep talking I don't really mind how could i do anything? anything that's not for you? even though it's true that i lie i've been going down the lanes tryna find bout anything tryna find everything you likeeeee tell me about all of the things you like x2389047892374893274 Can't you see I'm trying my best Speak to me, slowly and quiet Just keep telling me all the things you like Tell me bout all your favourite things in life Tell me about what you were doing all this time As long as you keep talking I don't really mind "Oh look! It's snowing! It's so frozen out here." "It's winter time!"

I'm just waiting To fall out of your calloused hands Watching the colours of the clouds rain down And I want to be so much more then I am And I want to feel the coldest gusts of air So when I fall and scratch my knees Don't cry tears over me And when the roof starts to cave in Don't follow me back in Cut, cut cut out the light It eats you alive, It eats you alive If you feel suffocated There's reason to If you feel annoyed it's okay to If you feel need help Let me help you If you feel I'm not enough I'm not enough for you When I watch you handle the snow on your own I can't help but feel you're reaping what I've sown When I watch the the roof crumble beneath it's weight Powerless and frantic, I just sit and wait If I hear you scream Don't say it's something else If I hear you call Don't act like there's nothing else If you get frustrated Don't take it all on your own And in my greatest moments I am only a shadow Cut, cut cut out the light It eats you alive, It eats you alive Cut, cut cut out the light It eats you alive, It eats you alive If I just have the purest of intentions Can you at least say that's worth a mention Everything turns itself inside out If I were honest maybe I'd start to drown To be honest I'm not honest To be truthful I'm not useful To be honest I'm not honest To turn myself Just set me free I am not who you think I am I am not who you think I am I am not who you think I am I am not who you think I am

Is it really choice Pull yourself together So you can stare down every hallway I think I'd rather stare at the rear-view mirror But I can't help it I'm just helpless Everywhere I look Take my hands off the wheel Maybe I'm rushing too quickly into traffic Or maybe not quick enough I caught myself sprinting down Rushing forward The early bird gets the worm but I'm the one on top! The bird catches the worm but I get out on top! I am helpless I can't help it I am helpless I can't help it One day I will be fine I just have to wait it all out A few more months... Or years... Or days... Or decades... Or centuries... Or millenniums... Licking wounds, I'm dying Barely living Rural skies or City lights Temperatures colder Getting older Screams in my room Hiding beneath the bed I see it I just stare at the ceiling Avoiding the dust Avoiding what's beneath me Everything will be ok I'm just wishing it all away Wishing it all away Wishing it all away Wishing it all away Free yourself From the schedules Turning slowly Everything will be okay I will pick my fights another day Oh Everything will be okay If everything changes, then everything is the same Oh Everything will be okay I will pick my fights another day Oh Everything will be okay If everything changes, then everything is the same I hope everything will be okay I just let the snowfall, let it pour over me Covering everything that lies out of reach I just let the snowfall, let it pour over me Covering everything that lies out of reach "I don't know what you're supposed to do out here." "You're supposed to camp! And or... make smores." "What's a smore?" Thank you for your time.